Goal Update

So today is February 2nd, and I obviously didn't do a great job with keeping up with my blogging last month. I posted 15 times, so I got about half of the writing done that I planned on doing. I need to get back on track with my goals - I haven't lost any weight, barely saved up any money towards my goal, and I've been falling behind on schoolwork (yes, already). I've realized that at least some of my lack of motivation is related to the anxiety and depression I'm dealing with, so I met with a counselor at Wayne State (they have  a free counseling program for students) and will be setting up weekly meetings with a psychologist, pending I don't get stuck on the waitlist. Hopefully talking to someone about my anxiety will help me feel more adjusted and ready to handle the challenges of grad school. When my anxiety and depression get overwhelming, I tend to do very little - I procrastinate even more than usual, and usually take the easy way out when it comes to decisions about how to spend my time, what to eat, whether or not to be social, that sort of thing. It is hard to worry about getting motivated to do things above and beyond what is required of me when I can barely find the energy to do the things I really need to for school...so I'm working on that. I plan on making up my 15 missed posts from January, just to keep myself in the habit of doing something on a daily basis that tracks my progress...so basically, I should be posting every day this month through the 15th, and possibly beyond. Hopefully. For my February goal I'm going to try to wake up by 9 am every day...hopefully waking up early will make me more motivated to face the day - I tend to get depressed and bored when I wake up late and don't get any real sunlight at all. My sleep schedule hasn't been as out of whack lately, either, but 9 am will still be challenging - I've had a hard time with 10 am lately, but an hour earlier shouldn't severely effect my mental health or anything. I think I should probably ban the Kindle from the bedroom until I'm on a more regular sleep schedule, because it tends to be really, really distracting when I'm trying to fall asleep. I have a new alarm (I can't wake up to my cell phone alarms at this point) which should help as well. Matt is almost always up early, too, so we'll get to spend more time together this way, too. I'm hoping I start to feel better soon, but right now I'm honestly too tired to focus on writing. More tomorrow.